future in the past

in looking for a future in my past
i conceal the past to hasten the future
and in the midst of it all
i lose the present

the directions i seek
come from the voices
around me
they speak of confusions and illusions

so i stable my mind
by fixing my gaze
on a boat which i hope has it's
anchor sleeping on the ocean bed

it bobs gently
on the sea of ignorance
subtly and hypnotically
like a spell

i am drowning within myself
directions no longer hold any meaning
my zeal has died
i am lost


shot was taken in December 2006